letting go (Gary Valenciano)

Lead Me Lord by Gary Valenciano

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"Perfect Mom"

I am a mom of three wonderful healthy kids ages 17 (turning 18 this coming July) 15 and 12 and I thank God so much for these rewards who give me strength to fight all odds. I am writing this first testimonial about the Healing Power of fervent prayers.

When I was still young (I still feel I am. lol) I saw mothers taking care of their kids, most of the times kids got sick. See them crying, rushing to the hospitals. Sobbing and asking themselves what went wrong? It seems to me they feel so  helpless, and entrusting the wellness of their precious rewards to a trained individuals who have sworn to save and prolong lives.

It makes me wonder can I be that helpless?  or strong enough to face the challenges if its my own flesh and blood are the ones in pain? Can I still be a "perfect" mother when baby-problems strikes me? 

How can a helpless mom be, to a helpless baby? How can I overcome lost when all else fails? Again, I can feel fears engulfing me. It haunts me more when I  was confirmed pregnant at an early age of 21, with no mother-figure around to help me with the do's and dont's of being a mom. Was this a real test? Will I pass or fail?

July 18, 1992 is the day I delivered my first baby girl thru x-section. (Oh so soon she'll be turning into a lady) A start of my lifetime commitment. Wow! and OMG!  Nursing while recuperating? Fears are piling up. It should be a NO-NO to post-partum depression. I can not handle it anymore.

So what's the big deal!? as other may say... so what faith has to do with this thing?

Considering my ignorance, and what lies along being a mom of this three lovely kids I have, NO sickness struck them that made me rush them to the hospital that I could make me feel so helpless.

Why? 

It is because I came to learn to pray fervently when  facing  health problems.  And I believe that the  Greatest Healer in the universe is the Almighty Father. 

I never rattle myself, coz it is sign of mistrusting. Yet I feel so helpless, in a way that I am asking God to do the rest. 

I can say I was indeed a "Perfect Mother" to my kids' childhood years by keeping them healthy. Perfect in a way that I let God rule my life. No one I know is perfect only Him  

So I must say, to be a "Perfect Mom" is a "Mom with God". 


-----(But I am not saying that I don't trust medical professionals. What I did  is seek Him first , putting my trust with all my might. So grateful He did the Miracle Healing to my kids. as I call it. I believe there are certain instances that we need to seek for their assistance and I trust their vows.)

I MUST call it MIRACLE

Some things in life happen in a way we don't expect it.
What seems to be so impossible becomes possible.
Just a short talk with Him...
Crying my heart out,
Telling Him to let His will be done.
In an instant I am shocked
To discover something has happened.
With an emotion I cannot explain.
Will I be happy for what He did? or be upset with those involved?
Because of the path He has laid for me to take to make things possible?
I almost lost my senses
Fortunately, I have put all my trust in Him.
Which matters most when it comes to accepting what is about to happen
He knows what is BEST for me.
I know and I believe things happen for a reason and will fall into it’s proper place.
Days have passed and made me believe more
That MIRACLES always happen
I thank you Lord for what you have done.
And I beg for forgiveness for all my sins.
Lead me in your way!

Letting God Rule My Life

This is a collection of my testimonals in life that made me realize life is such a big sign of miracle.  Simple and complex events in my life which I can not explain, how God made it so possible for me, by simply letting Him rule my life. 

Trusting and believing that He can make wonders beyond human understandings. Sometimes I may sound so weird and its okey with me to say so. Because only those who have faith can relate or those who are finding meaning in their lives. 

He is my one and only TRUE FRIEND, and those human creatures I considered friends are branded as real friends, corporate friends, acquaintance, poker buddies (LOL),virtual friends. No matter how I categorized them I treasure them as precious gifts and can promise a lifetime of friendship for those who will accept it. I love my friends so much, aside from the family who never fails to support me even how much I become a pain in their ass. The pain I will soon unveil.

I want to share this simple prayer yet so powerful. I did  for myself which I frequently utter ...

         My Lord and My God, I adore you, I praise you, I trust you and I love you. Forgive me for I have sinned.

        Jesus, I am offering you this pain/trouble/problem I am suffering right now and the pain/trouble/problem of those who are also suffering with me.  Place it in your wounded, heart, cover it with your most precious blood and let the Father do what is best for me. He knows what I want, so I let Him do His will.  I asked this in Jesus name. Amen.

Once difficulties offered,  I won't  get it back and worry myself to death coz its a sign of mistrust! I will do my part and wait for who ever instrument He will use to help me make it through. 

So grateful for almost all answered prayers and most of the time, comes right in front of me as soon as I asked for it. And I call it MIRACLE!  

Praying fervently can really move mountains.

I LET GOD RULE MY LIFE. COZ I AM NOTHING WITHOUT HIM.